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Monday, May 16, 2005

haha....how long has it been? yea, exactly. So whats new you ask? too much, too fast. I guess ill start from where i left off. I found a new job at the Riverbay Restaurant in Williston Park. I both broke my nose and had it fixed, dont worry not only has it not affected my voice, its made it better and more resonant (imagine?!?!). I tore my right rotator cuff and had it fixed.....picking up a Tuba no less. We had our Spring Chorale and Opera Scences concerts, and i loved doing Die Fledermaus quintet. We got to drink real champagne onstage! I fell in love only to realize it was taboo and wound up getting more than one person in trouble (opps!). But most importantly, i got back what i lost 2 years ago........my smile. I owe that to Jen. From the very start she had me trapped in her eyes, and in her smile, and even though i could have tried to resist, there is no way i could have beaten back that feeling. So this past weekend is really where i think my life has just turned around yet again....i always do better in school when i am with someone, and though technically im not with her, she is still in my heart so its an incentive to drive forward and to do so much better than i have been.....cause i dont want her to get too far ahead of me. Then i really might lose her. Its that smile that comes across my face when i talk about her, when i think about her, when i talk to her, when i dream about her......i wake up and i smile and i fall asleep smiling. And so even though i cant wait to see if she will someday be with me, i know that if the timing is ever right, if at some point in the near future we both are single, you can bet that she will take her place by my side, reserved for her the moment her eyes first locked with mine. Right now i can only dream of her, i can only think about her in fantasy, but man what dreams may come into reality is far beyond my thoughts.