Today

Today is a day where I know I will be struggling all day. A day where my heart will ache, my eyes will tear up, and my mind will race. I will try to fight it and hopefully lose. I will learn not to fight myself as much. I will learn to be more calm and take life as it comes to me. I will try to be less sensitive, more understanding, less combative. I will miss Tessa, want to see her, fall in love and have my heart broken by her. Today is going to be better than yesterday, but only half as good as tomorrow. Today and everyday I will be getting better. I will still fall, I will still fail, but I will be able to get back up and move on.